High up on the hill I take a low place, a place of humility, and gratefulness.
In January, I had written this Facebook post;
“I’ve been given a really big vision. I believe it is divinely inspired. I’m being guided by the Spirit. For five years I’ve been faithful, offering my time, my money, everything I have, I’ve given it all. It’s been an honor to serve the communities via Operation Elf Box.
My mission in life comes with a tremendous amount of responsibility. I’ve had to be extremely resourceful, creative, working hard throughout the year. I invest everything I have into this dream. I’ve been patient, trusting, honest, and kind. There’s been a lot of help along the way, friends and strangers, encouraging me, planting seeds of hope. They’ve helped me go the extra mile. For all of this I’m grateful.
There have been times when Ive had a lot of faith, and at other times, almost none at all. It’s been a humbling experience, not always knowing how my basic needs would be met.
I believe that my Creators will for me is to be love in all things, to work towards building this vision, everyday. I have a lot of work to do. Please pray that my needs will be met. Pray that I will overcome my fears. Pray that I don’t give up.”
It’s required that I be bold, that I am courageous. I choose not to be discouraged, though there are those who have tried. This mission that I’m assigned to requires that I live by faith. Without help, without faith, it would be impossible.
Children live by faith, I live by faith, and my dog Shoeless Jo, he too lives by faith. He trusts me to care for him, to provide him food and water, to keep him out of harms way. He trusts that I’ll be gentle with him, with my touch and my words. He trusts me to teach him, to show him the way, and to love him despite his imperfections.
I believe in myself, trusting my mind, my heart, my body, and my muscles to propel me. I have faith that when I lay down to sleep at night I will wake up in the morning. Without faith I would not go to sleep.
And so it is by believing, the impossible becomes possible. I’ve found the secret to living by faith is to let go, but not give up. I’ve chosen to be obedient, to listen for my calling, and to respond with action, and with love.
Thomas Merton wrote these words and now I share them with you: “Our job is to love others without stopping to inquire whether or not they are worthy. That is not our business and, in fact, it is nobody’s business. What we are asked to do is to love, and this love itself will render both ourselves and our neighbors worthy.”
Last night my friend Tim drove us to a restaurant and treated me to dinner. He introduced me to several of his friends. One of them inquired about my journey. Without question or hesitation he immediately opened his wallet, handing me two crisp Benjamin’s, saying “God bless you”. He was faithful, responding with love. I am grateful. My needs are always met with abundance.
In this moment I have all the evidence I need to continue going forward, to pursue my dreams. Whatever occurs to me will work for my good. This is faith, this is believing.